BL game Review/Summary: Ego to Koukai no Dilemma

I finished playing Ego to Koukai no Dilemma over the weekend, and it was surprisingly a great ride! It’s pretty short too since there is only one LI, so I decided to choose it for my first ever BL game review. You can download a trial version of the game here (click any the こちらから and look for a button the 体験版 word in the page that opens).

For any shounen-ai lovers, I must warn you that this game is R18 and rather messed up with yandere elements, but I should also warn hardcore people looking forward to a psychopath love interest murdering people left and right that none of the bad ends have any crazy murder stuff despite how creepy the title screen looks (even the worst scenario just has some heartbreak and questionable sex acts). The happy end that seems to be canon is actually sweet enough to defeat many classic shoujo manga (´。• ω •。`) ♡

Because I don’t want my readers to get into awkward situations, I’ll sometimes crop or censor the NSFW images in this post. Click on the censored images to see the actual uncensored images.  


The story starts by giving us the same info as in the game synopsis: Matsushima Junta, the protagonist, recently transferred into this all boys private academy “Hanafuji Gakuen”. Junta is smug of his achievement because it’s a top tier school, but also disappointed because there are no girls here for him to impress. His previous school was co-ed and he was super popular there, but after enrolling here hasn’t had any contact with girls whatsoever (his last girlfriend dumped him when he was studying extra hard for the entrance exams for this school and didn’t give her enough time). Even picking up girls outside isn’t much of an option because it costs money to go on dates and this school forbids part-time work and has a strict 7 pm curfew for the dorms (it’s a boarding school). He keeps whining about how he wants a girlfriend, and his best friend Suisen Anri (he has made several friends after coming to this school but Anri is the one he’s become closest to) is like stfu yo let me focus on my game.


Anri has been really into otome games lately, and he even explains the game mechanics to Junta. My first impression of Anri was “what a cutie, he even plays otome games, can I have him please (●♡∀♡)” . The mobile otome game he’s currently playing is called “love response”, and he recommends that Junta try playing love response if he’s feeling bored. Junta notices that one of their quiet classmates ( Junta describes him as so gloomy and unassuming that having him nearby makes the air clammy lmfao), Katsuragi Wataru, is a splitting image of one of the LIs in love response.


The otoge LI, Daimonji Kensuke

And this is Katsuragi Wataru, the possibly yandere quiet classmate. The artist didn’t even bother drawing two separate pics lol. Junta calls out to Wataru and compares him to the image in his phone (he’s already downloaded the game).


The hand gesture Wataru makes around Junta is so adorable  Also his voice is super cute ♥ Just for shits and giggles, Junta decides to repeat the actions taken while romancing the mobile game LI to Wataru in real life and observe how he reacts. Anri isn’t amused at his plan at first (despite his flashy appearance he’s almost too serious when it comes to romantic stuff) and his voice gets all cold and judgy, but Junta bullshits his way out by saying he just wants to be friends with Wataru. In his head, however, he just labels this as “himatsubushi” or “killing time”.

While playing the otoge, Junta names the game MC “Junko” after his own name (making both me and Anri lol). He obviously picks the Kensuke route, and the first choice is to go to the LI’s club room. So he visits Wataru who is a member of the arts club, and Wataru’s so fucking otome I can’t take it 😂

Junta is like “he’s also blushing like the game LI did, what a great realistic game!” Nope you just got lucky fam that you picked a target who already likes you. Wataru asks him why he came here, and Junta goes “What would be the right answer? Wait, this is also like a choice inside an otome game! We humans are making such choices everyday…otome games are so deep, huh”.

We are at the point where we have to make a choice, and the right one is to say that he wanted to talk to Wataru. Wataru gets very excited and asks if he “remembers him”, which smells strongly of “forgotten childhood friend” trope lol. The bell rings before Junta can answer though, so they return to class together with the issue still up in the air.

Soon Junta is out of tickets because cursed free mobage, and when he can finally progress it’s the evening and he’s at the dorm. The 2 options are 1. ask to join in the bath 2. ask to join in the training room. Obviously the right choice is the second (the trick is to pick the game choices that actually make sense both ingame and are also applicable to Wataru), and Junta manages to successfully persuade Wataru into joining him to work out on the exercise bike. Junta turns into a contest on who can shed more calories and makes Wataru fetch him some Ginger ale when Junta wins. I loved this particular expression when Wataru agrees to get the drink, so cute (*♡∀♡)

We get this funny scene of Wataru going (⁄ ⁄•⁄ω⁄•⁄ ⁄) at an indirect kiss when Junta passed him his half-finished ginger ale and then took it back again to finish it, and I died when Junta was like “I feel like he’s starting at my throat as I drink???” lmfao I bet his mind was full of gutter, he even let out this low sigh („ಡωಡ„)

The dorm chime for supper rings, and Junta invites Wataru to have a meal with him and Wataru literally says “My heart isn’t prepared yet!” I’m dying this boy ☆*:.。.o(≧▽≦)o.。.:*☆ Some of Junta’s fellow fuckboi friends notice him with Wataru and are surprised, and one even correctly guesses that he’s having fun on Wataru’s account and asks to join in. In his head Junta is like “wow man bulls-eye!” but outwards he acts like a good boy “Nah Wataru and I really have become buddies uwu”. Anri is the only one who is genuinely happy to see them together and he drags those jocks away while blessing the duo with his gaze lol.

While eating together, the two of them chat and we learn that Wataru is an 100% loner because he’s the only member even in the art club, with past members having moved on to anime/plastic figure creation etc. His interests lie in making toys, and he donates the toys to a nearby orphanage, how sweet ;v; Junta is impressed, and requests Wataru to make something for him. Wataru shyly agrees.

The next morning Junta is playing love response again, and there is a subplot where the game LI Kensuke is in danger of expulsion over his long hair. The way Junta gets so seriously worried about it is #relatable for us gamers lol. He consults Anri who is also busy trying to capture Subaru-kyun (another character in love response) and repeatedly failing as he’s so hard that nobody has managed to clear him yet. We get another choice on how Junta convinces Kensuke to cut his hair. The right choice is to butter him up by saying that his hair would look better short. I like how Junta is like “lol he’s cute” when Kensuke blushes and appreciates the charm of otome games 

The next day on their way to school, he uses the same phrase to convince Wataru to get a haircut. It’s funny but also a little troubling how every time Wataru gives a positive response Junta’s inwardly like “affection points up!”, he’s totally not treating Wataru as a real person with feelings :/ He also starts wondering if love response will contain sex scenes (it’s an all-ages game so the answer is no), and pervs over the idea of ‘Junko’ in an orgy lmao. The next day Wataru shows up with his new hairstyle which he supposedly got cut in a nice salon called “Egoist” that Junta also frequents (lol at the nod to the game’s name).

During the next few days Junta doesn’t progress much in his otome game experiment plan because Wataru always seems to be off somewhere whenever they have free time. Sunday arrives, but Junta ends up wasting most of it napping because he was up searching R18 otoge all night 。゚(TヮT)゚。

By this point he has reached the happy end in love response and he’s super stoked (even doing the “GUTS POSE (๑˃ᴗ˂)ﻭ” lmfao) by when Kensuke confesses to Junko. He’s like “I’m glad for you two ଘ(੭ˊᵕˋ)੭* ੈ✩‧₊˚” and is very touched by the their pure love (he didn’t cry but was close to it lol). He does a little self-reflection on how his relationships until now were all impure with sex the only end goal, and wishes to have a sincere relationship the next time. Interestingly enough, Wataru chooses this exact moment to drop by Junta’s room and asks him to come with Wataru for a little bit.

He brings Junta to a nearby park and suddenly switches to calling Junta by his first name (before today it was “Matsushima-kun”, now he’s using “Junta-kun”), asking if Junta had “remembered” him. Junta has no clue, and while Wataru is a little disappointed, he goes ahead and gifts Junta a handmade wooden toy train. Junta feels a little guilty because he was just fishing for affection points when he made that request, and yet Wataru put so much effort into pleasing him (he even made a bunch of other things like toy cars, puzzles etc, and then “remembered that Junta-kun likes trains”). Wataru feels like the gift was too childish, and we get 2 choices of what Junta can say. I’m not even sure what the right choice is because one is “adult toys might have been better 乁( • ω •乁)” and the other is “a puzzle might have been better”. I’m leaning towards the first because Wataru is like “Huh!? (//▽//) Okay, if Junta-kun wants it I’ll do my best” lmao.

Regardless of the choice, the next scene is…confession time!

“You’ve also come to like me right?”

Junta’s face 😂 Wataru is so confident of his theory that Junta’s recent approaches are an indicator of romantic interest, he’s like “I like u 2 uwu ZUTTO AISHITEITA” while Junta is frozen in a state of complete WTF.  He clutches onto Junta’s hands and goes “You’ll go out with me, right?” and once again 2 choices (3 if you are on bad end path).

~~~BAD END 1~~~

Let’s go back a little bit for an early bad end and see what happens if I pick all the wrong choices all throughout like asking him to shower together lmao. In this bad end Junta shuts Wataru down hard and explains his otome game experiment thingy. Wataru was heartbroken, but he took the rejection in a pretty mature way and only hated himself for misunderstanding. I guess he didn’t have as much hope as he does in the good end so it’s less painful to give up. But their friendship did fall apart and a few days later Anri narrates how Junta is going to a “yarikon”, it’s like “goukon” (group blind date) but with a focus on getting laid. Wataru heard him agreeing to go, so I was expecting some yan but the game ended without any…I guess the biggest tragedy in this end is Junta giving up on love.

Note: Before the start of the game plot Junta is kind of a manwhore and so far he has only dated in order to get laid. The pure romance in otome games did make him appreciate love somewhat but in this bad end he’s back to his playboy ways.

~~~BAD END 1 FIN~~~

Back to the good end path now. Junta tries to laugh things off, but Wataru goes all srs bns, leaving no ambiguity.

“Junta-kun, I love you.”

Junta tries to convince Wataru that he approached him passionately for the last few days because he just wanted to be friends and Wataru’s like “most relationships start from friendship, now lets take the next step ” and counters all of Junta’s claims that he doesn’t like Wataru romantically with “Aww you’re being shy, that’s cute  ” I was dying of laughter when I played this part. He keeps advancing towards Junta and is like “y u running away? ( • ω • )” In the end Junta panicked and told him the whole truth, which also happened in the bad end, but here he made the blow softer and had been nicer throughout, so Wataru still stays hopeful (read: delusional). There is a line of Wataru’s many lgbt players will appreciate, I will translate it:
“When I realized that I had fallen in love with the same gender, I was scared of myself. I felt as if I was abnormal. But I was not. There are many people who can only love the same gender, and also people who can love both. There is not a single person in this world who is “abnormal” for this.” Ma gud boi ;v;

He keeps assuming that Junta does love him after all and is only afraid to come out of the closet, he’s like “I totally get it uwu”. Junta’s equally pissed and terrified of how Wataru keeps interpreting everything to his own benefit but in the end rage wins out and he’s like “YOU’RE NOT FUCKING LISTENING TO ME”

He’s pissed 😂 Wataru really needs to develop better listening comprehension lol. In the end Junta runs away., and afterwards get a short scene of Junta hanging out with his friends during dinner and trying his best to get Wataru out of his head, but then the scenery switches to THIS (the music also suddenly changes, scared the crap outta me Σ(°△°|||)︴)


Not a face one wants to see when you’re holding a soldering iron ma dude. I thought he used only wood for his handicrafts but apparently he’s also trying out plastic and silicon. He doesn’t explicitly say what he’s making, but I have a bad feeling, especially after the line “I want Junta-kun to be unable to be satisfied without me” (눈_눈) Also apparently he has been secretly adding refills to Junta’s pencils, what in the living fuck 😂 Depending on where he did it (in the classroom? or did he trespass Junta’s room?), it can be slightly or extremely creepy.

Meanwhile Junta has a nightmare that starts with him surrounded by a harem of babes but right when he’s about to start naughty stuff with them they change into Wataru. His scream as he woke up was hilarious lmfao. During breakfast Anri notices that he seems down (Junta’s usually an early riser but the nightmare fucked up his sleep), but Junta doesn’t want to tell Anri the truth and get him mad at Junta for messing with Wataru, so they talk about love response instead. Anri is still fighting with Subaru-kyun route, while Junta doesn’t feel like playing the game anymore despite having enjoyed it because of the stuff with Wataru. I liked this cute declaration from Anri though uwu


“I’ll become the first man in the world to be -RABURABU- with Subaru-kyun!”

Junta decides to ignore Wataru as much as possible. He spends the whole class sleeping, but is still sleepy during the last class which is physical education. The rule is that the pair that will come in last will be in charge of putting all the equipment away, so Junta and Anri try not to lose. Junta is normally good at tennis, but he’s pretty jittery after being ogled by Wataru in the locker room when changing. His team loses every match, and even in the last one where Wataru was his opponent (Wataru’s pair was the ace of the tennis club who curb-stomps Junta and Anri) because of the constant (♡ω♡) “heated gaze” from Wataru lol.

Unfortunately for Junta, Anri gets called away for a meeting of the cultural festival committee. Wataru offers to help Junta collect the equipment, and is delighted how Junta “didn’t glance at him directly during the match because he was too shy”, and despite Junta’s claim that he was just too grossed out, he’s like “it’s hard to look straight at the person you like because you feel too embarrassed, I know that feeling

He sneak attacks when Junta’s hands are full of tennis rackets, and is like “I’m happy that Junta-kun took my first kiss” making Junta go “U WERE THE ONE WHO SMOOCHED ME OUTTA NOWHERE U FUCKER ٩(╬ʘ益ʘ╬)۶” Junta tries once again to solve Wataru’s misunderstanding, explaining how he has no romantic feelings for Wataru and he only interacted with him for the sake of the otome game experiment, but the only thing Wataru picked up from that convo was “so I look as hot as a otome game character in your eyes?  ” Junta’s PTSD face after realizing nothing he says will get through to Wataru amuses me so much.

In the end Junta leaves Wataru to clean up the gym. He decides to ignore Wataru as much as possible, and act harsh towards him when avoidance doesn’t work. This is what he used to do when he broke up with girls (Junta really is trash, in the past he cheated on his gf with the excuse that sex friends were “different” (╯°益°)╯彡┻━┻).

He took a long nap after he got back to the dorm and woke up in the middle of the night, but when he went out for some food Wataru was standing outside his room 😱 He wanted to stay inside the room but unfortunately he really had to use the toilet, but when he returned to his room Wataru was already inside, going all “I helped myself inside since we’re a couple who have already kissed uwu”.

It’s a little sweet that the reason he was waiting was to give Junta some food since their dorm kitchens close pretty early and the option to go outside isn’t available since the gates are locked after 11 pm. He asked the cook to make some onigiris beforehand. I was a bit touched for ONE SECOND before he went “don’t worry, I only started waiting in front of your door after midnight once everyone went to bed, until then I was in my room. BTW the sound of you sleeping across the door was lovely uwu” Junta thanks him for the food and tries to drive him out, and he somehow translates Junta’s irritation as a result of sexual frustration?? 😂 “I’m sorry for not realizing that I was making you horny” lmao wut? Cue surprise sumata

He actually tried to penetrate but he’s too inexperienced and couldn’t get it inside. Junta is like “Thank you my asshole for being tight 😭 you saved my virtue” lmfao. After Wataru prematurely ejaculated on Junta’s ass (NSFW CG here), he again assumed that Junta is mad because he didn’t get to come. This time Junta finally manages to throw him out successfully, and then takes a shower while raging at the whole world lol. He regrets ever talking to Wataru, thinking that he shouldn’t have gone against the school hierarchy, and should have realized that Wataru didn’t have friends because he was “abnormal” (here Junta is referring to his absolutely terrible listening comprehension).

The next day Junta spends all his time with his fuckboi friends to avoid Wataru. He bugs some of them to introduce to the friends of their girlfriends, but apparently he is blacklisted by the girls because of his cheating playboy history lol. Then again, his friends are also the same, one was going to a goukon despite having a girlfriend with the excuse ‘what she doesn’t know won’t hurt her’ (凸ಠ益ಠ)凸

Anyway, things get WILD when Wataru lures Junta to the classroom after school hours using a fake message. His excuse is that he wants to make up for Junta not getting to come last night, and he asked another person to send a message that that Anri was calling Junta because Junta wouldn’t come if he called Junta himself (also he doesn’t have Junta’s phone no).

He’s like “I’m sorry that you didn’t get to come last night T_T” and Junta’s like “fffs that’s not what you should be apologizing for (`皿´#)”. Wataru now asks to give Junta a bj and Junta, now desperate, tries to convince him that ppl might discover them and think the Junta is forcing Wataru to do so as a part of bullying. Then Wataru shows him THIS


“See? Proof that we are already dating uwu”
“Do you want a copy? I can mail it to you if you want”
FUCK џ(ºДºџ)

Junta freaks out and asks him to delete it, and Wataru asks if Junta thinks that he’d spread this photo around. Picking no makes him happy so I’m gonna go with that. Junta is like “fuck his affection level went up” lmao.


Wataru disregards Junta’s protests as just him being shy and goes in for the kill, and apparently Wataru is somehow great at fellatio despite his lack of experience, and Junta is pissed at himself for reacting to it XD. If this is the level of improvement from one night of internet searching, Wataru is a sex genius (last night he didn’t even know that you need lube for anal). Junta’s like “I can’t come, he’ll take that as a positive thing”, but in the end fails to hold back and we get this:

“I drank it all, Junta-kun’s delicious cum” Junta must eat a lot of fruits lmao.

Later Junta returns to the dorm while freaked out and has an identity crisis (he realized that the girls he had dated had looked disgusted while giving bjs and nowhere as happy as Wataru, which might be proof that none of the girls actually liked him how Wataru does and his assumption that he was popular among ladies might be as misguided as Wataru’s view on their relationship). He then goes to Anri and finally tells him most of the story, leaving out the sex parts. But Anri is completely unsympathetic. Junta was hoping Anri would help him negotiate with Wataru since Anri has good communication skills and was a third party Wataru might have listened to, but his hopes are crushed.

“You reap what you sow. This is what happens when you play with someone’s heart.”

Anri also seems to get triggered every time Junta says stuff like “What could I do except reject him? Men liking men is gross”. I suspect he is gay and maybe in love with Wataru? Because he said that he won’t forgive Junta if he hurt Wataru and threw him out of the room.

After getting kicked out by Anri, Junta tries to bathe in the shared bathroom in the dorm but Wataru sneaks up on him (he wasn’t being a stalker tho, he always showers late at night, around this time) and blindfolds him with a towel. His reasoning is that he’s too hazukashii to show Junta his naked body, and I’m like “it’s too late for such shyness, fam ” 。゚(TヮT)゚。

Creepy or not, Watau is a cute boi….Soon after I thought that, Wataru arranged them into a 69 position (a friend pointed out Wataru looks like he’s asking for a rim job lmao).


Junta was very reluctant to participate at first but he was defeated by Wataru’s cockteasing skills and ended up begging him to continue  and ofc he had to suck Wataru’s dingdong as reciprocation. They both ended up swallowing and Wataru is like “I’m so happy ” He gave Junta a bath afterwards and Junta is like “I can’t be fucked to resist anymore ¯\_(ツ)_/¯”.

I’m loving how Junta is currently afraid because 1. Wataru is physically bigger and stronger 2. he has that pic 3. junta is worried about being ostracized if word got out that someone so ‘lame’ managed to do such things to him. But at the same time he is starting to like the sex and losing his mind over it lmao. I really enjoy this type of psychological stuff. He actually thought “I can’t ever date a guy but maybe he could function as a sex slave 🤔 ” and freaked out immediately after realizing how he actually liked sex with Wataru enough to consider such a thing. “Am I starting to LIKE him!? 😱”

A little opportunity to get closer to the happy end here- Junta asks Wataru if he no longer feels embarrassed to have Junta look at him naked, and he starts going (⁄ ⁄•⁄ω⁄•⁄ ⁄) again, where Junta can comment either “you’re kinda cute” or “gross”. Obviously the first one is the right option.

The next day Junta tried to take a diplomatic approach and called Wataru to a deserted science room after school to ask him the reason Wataru fell in love with him, hoping to destroy that reason and get himself out of this mess. Wataru says that Junta was his first love from his childhood (nailed it (●≧ω≦)9). But before Junta can get any details out of him, he starts trying to do sex stuff again. Junta panics because he’s worried that he’ll get too addicted to this and “become unable to leave Wataru”. We get 2 choices, I’ll do the bad end first.

~~~BAD END 2~~~

I picked the option to punch him, and Junta beat him up. Finally Wataru understood that Junta has been hating him all this time. Junta was like “success!” 🎉 for one sec before he started talking about they can start again and he’ll turn Junta’s hate into love some day 🤦


After some more beating, Junta decided to get back at him by reversing their roles and fucking Wataru instead. There was a truly dry ass fucking scene, it made my butt clench {{ (>_<) }}


I do love how karma bit him in the ass soon afterwards. They got discovered by the teachers, who are convinced that Junta is a rapist. He and Wataru gave very contradictory statements. Junta is like “He’s my stalker, it was self defense” making the teachers disgusted with him while Wataru is like “we’re just a loving couple engaging in some BDSM  please don’t blame him”. It was hilariously tragic.

Wataru is so deluded that he insists that Junta is shy even when he’s told that Junta testified against him. Junta requested Anri be called to testify that he was being stalked, but Anri was so disgusted by his actions that he told the truth in a way that made it sound like Junta is playing with Wataru’s pure emotions lmao. The teachers had a meeting to discuss their punishments, and decided on 3 weeks of suspension for Junta and 2 weeks for Wataru. Basically they accepted Wataru’s “it’s consensual uwu” explanation (though they are totally convinced that Junta is an abusive bf) and both boys are just being penalized for fucking in school grounds, Junta getting an extra week for the violence.

Junta blew his top and the teachers are like “wtf, why are you complaining when the punishment is so lenient” and he’s like “BECAUSE NO ONE BELIEVES ME!! D: ”
He even gave a fake confession that he bullied and raped Wataru, hoping to get expelled, just so that he isn’t treated as a couple with Wataru. When even that didn’t work out, he punched the chairman of the teacher’s board and got expelled.

I liked how Junta calls Anri for being overly obsessed with Wataru’s well being like “Why do you want to honor Wataru’s feelings of love towards me but not my wish to stay away from him?” I also legit got sad seeing Wataru still thinking Junta is just shy even as the latter leaves the school and heads towards the train station. I believe that he did realize Junta’s hate when getting dry fucked but is refusing to accept reality as a defense mechanism.

~~~BAD END 2 FIN~~~

Now going back to good end route, which seems ever more wild O.o Here Junta runs away from Wataru instead of punching, this time he’s less violent and more afraid of the fact that he’s starting to like the sex with Wataru. He still has a hard on when he gets back to his room and tries to jerk off to het porn, but it didn’t do much. Then he remembers the classroom bj and the bath 69 which surprisingly result in a much better orgasm 😂

Meanwhile in Wataru’s room, we see him going all “the ‘presents’ I made for Junta-kun is finally complete  but Junta-kun is shy so he might not accept them in a straightforward manner, so I need something to get rid of his shyness ” Making me go BRUH I CAN SEE WHERE YOU ARE GOING PLZ DON’T

The next day Junta slept a lot in class because all this stuff with Wataru is fucking up his sleep at night. Once he woke up, he found Anri had gotten him some food and drinks despite still being pissed at him. It’s sweet of Anri but he unintentionally played a part in Junta’s doom, because the next scene was where Junta half-finished the drink and went to the toilet, and finished the rest after he came back. By this point I’m 100% sure that Wataru took advantage of his absence and slipped something in there. (For anyone thinking that it was some date rape drug, dw it was just sleeping medicine Wataru had uses himself, it’s all prescribed and legit)

Junta’s friends invited him out but he got “suddenly sleepy” again, making everyone go “wow u can sleep even more?” When he woke up he found 3 of Wataru’s “presents” on himself.


(If only highschool boys were that ripped lol.)

It’s amazing how Wataru rationalizes everything:
“We don’t want to do found out, better put some tape on your mouth. Sorry, I’ll try to make a proper gag next time”
“We don’t want you to hurt yourself from flailing too much from pleasure, better tie up your hands in the back”
He even made the lube himself from potato starch, a truly resourceful man.(b ᵔ▽ᵔ)b

Shit really hits the fan when Anri and another dude come back to the classroom and Wataru has to shove Junta in a cabinet. What’s worse is that the other dude Eto (one of Junta’s friends actually) informs Wataru that the advisor of the art club is calling him, so Junta is left in the cabinet, still gagged and tied up and stuffed full of sex toys.

Anri actually guesses what’s happening, but somehow he starts acting like an asshole and doesn’t try to save Junta. Soon the stimulation from the sex toys becomes too much for Junta and his sounds result in him getting found out.


Anri seems to be blaming Junta for everything and taking Wataru’s side. Eto, the other classmate, actually assumed that someone did this to Junta as a part of bullying and Junta nodded, but Anri’s like “nah, look at him, I bet he did it out of his own will”.
And instead of liberating his hands, Anri pulled out the thing in his urethra, resulting in this humiliating situation (NSFW CG here).

My friends I liveblogged this to felt more bad for Junta here than the bad end where he got expelled, and I also think he’d prefer expulsion over this public disgrace. Anyway, Wataru returns and is full of regret, seeing reality for once. I expected Junta to murder him but he’s too drained at this point. Also he expects to become the laughing stock of the whole school when the word gets out, so Wataru now seems like the only person who wouldn’t ostracize him. “He’s the only one who’ll always love me” 😭 this is tragic.

Wataru is not crazy for once and expects Junta to start hating him, even saying that “Please say it to me straight. If that’s what you wish, I won’t touch you ever again, or try to talk to you. I’ll respect your feelings.” Ironically, this is what Junta has been wishing for all this time, but right now he’s too scared of becoming alone. He also has some inner monologue claiming that he feels bad about the whole otome game thing and wants to take responsibility for dragging Wataru into this mess, but I think that’s just him trying to convince himself.

~~~BAD END 3~~~

2 choices again, I’ll pick the bad end one where Junta becomes slutty and is like “put those toys in me again”. I guess this is a way of escapism, from the harsh reality of rapidly approaching public disgrace. Junta drags Wataru to a secluded place, the swimming pool area that only a few people have access to (Junta coincidentally knows the locker code of the place where the keys are at), and makes Wataru get him off once more with the prostate massager, treating Wataru like a servant throughout and only focused on his own pleasure. His current mindset is “anything goes as long as it feels good”. He wanted to stay longer but this time Wataru was the mature one and convinced him that they could continue with an “even more amazing toy” tomorrow. Wataru was initially happy for Junta’s attention but his sixth sense is finally working and he’s picking up hints on Junta’s careless treatment of him.

The next day Junta comes to school prepared to be mocked but also he’s a bit too obsessed with sex to be too worried. But surprisingly, nobody gives him a hard time because Wataru went to Anri and convinced him that it was Wataru’s fault, and Anri convinced the other dude to keep his mouth shut. Anri is back to being friendly and Junta is also chill, but I cannot forgive Anri >.< Junta has turned into a total horndog and had to keep sitting down because he kept getting erections throughout class fantasizing about the “even more amazing toy” 😂 Do note that he still doesn’t like Wataru romantically, he’s just the best option to get that delicious prostate stimulation.

After class they go to the pool again, but Wataru doesn’t want to bring any toys out and offers a bj. Junta is like “I can’t be satisfied with that! BRING ME WHAT U PROMISED! 💢 ” like a total brat. Then Wataru confessed that he lied about the amazing toy to just get Junta home, and he’s also worried about Junta getting addicted to toys. Junta mentally roasts Wataru for acting like this when he is the one who started the whole thing and is like “whatever, then just suck me”.

Wataru finally starts acting like a normal human and is like “What’s with that tone, that sounds like you just think of me as a onahole” (onahole: a silicon made vagina shaped sex toy for male masturbation ). Anyway, his tone makes Junta remember how his past gfs dumped him after realizing that he was a fuckboi only after their bodies, and doesn’t want that to happen with Wataru because “He has good technique and might even make that amazing toy in the future for me huehue. Anyway I gotta maintain his delusion of mutual love”.

Wataru: “I started to get worried after yesterday that maybe you only saw me as a toy”
Junta: (oh shit, he’s catching on)

This is sad and hilarious. Anyhow, Junta lied to Wataru that “I like you  ” and Wataru, amazingly enough, was not fooled.


“It was just my delusion!!”

Junta is like “look how hard I am for you, this is love ” and when even that doesn’t work, grabs Watarau’s dick which finally results in Wataru pushing them both into the pool and fucking Junta. The lines made me sad here : Wataru talking about how he only wanted Junta’s love, and Junta going “YAY HE FINALLY LOOKS DOWN TO FUCK” and labels Wataru’s dick as the actual ‘amazing toy’


Even mid sex Wataru blames himself and goes “this isn’t what I wanted T_T” . Their post-sex expressions say enough about the situation.

Afterwards Watatu takes care of Junta who fell asleep and dries their clothes, but leaves determinedly after Junta wakes up, ignoring his pleas for more dicc. Wataru gets caught when trying to leave the school, and Junta manages to escape while the teachers are interrogating Wataru (apparently staying after hours can be a reason for detention? this school is hardcore).

Junta was hoping that Wataru will get off with some light scolding since he has always had a clean record, and was looking forward to fucking once he gets back. But he doesn’t, and isn’t in the classroom the next day either. Junta is like “I wonder if he got put in detention? I hate not being able to have sex with him T^T”

Apparently he only got scolded, but then asked to drop out of school himself. The teachers were like “fuck did we scold him too much? D:” but obviously that’s not the reason. He has now returned to his house. Junta finally collected Wataru’s mail address from Anri and started messaging Wataru, trying to calm him. We get this sad but funny text convo:
“I miss you” no response “Sorry about running away alone last night” no response “I really like you” BLOCKED

Wataru’s parents accept his decision to drop out. Junta is such trash that he went looking for the sex toys in Wataru’s room before it got cleared out, and when he didn’t find them was like “maaan what a useless guy, he could have at least left them for me” 😂 Now he has gained the hobby of jerking off in their empty classroom since the place reminds him of their misadventures. One day he got caught masturbating by some classmate who gathered some seniors and 3 of them decided to drag him to a secluded place and rape him. At first he was like “NOOOO THIS IS SCARY D:” but soon he was like “oooh, so it still feels good even if it’s not him, yay”.

A few weeks later, Junta seems to have taken up the lifestyle of the school slut now and is seemingly happy about it. He’s being ostracized by the regular students since the bastards who raped him apparently made a video of it and circulated it secretly. But some gay/bi students actually contacted those seniors and now Junta has tons of regular sex buddies. Only Anri seems to still care for his wellbeing and begs him to stop this, but Junta is like ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
“Although I’ve become an onahole for those seniors, they are also the same as vibrators and dildos for me. It’s an equivalent exchange.”


The story ends with him continuing his “happy” sex marathon with eyeless randos (click on above pic if you want to burn your eyes). After having played the other ends I feel like this is Junta’s way of dealing with trauma – treat it as something you wanted. It’s pretty sad 😦

~~~BAD END 3 FIN~~~

Now back to good end that we get by asking for a hug when Wataru is comforting Junta after the locked incident. Go away orgies, we’re now hugging 

Junta is less of an asshole in this route, he’s a little confused over his feelings of lust and guilt but he’s not as fucked up as above. He labeled Wataru as a friend in his head, and when Wataru hugged him and said “I love you” he didn’t lie and say it back because he thought lying about something like this would be too cruel after all that otome game bullshit he already did.

He said that he didn’t want to go back to the dorm, but unlike the bad end where it’s because he wants to fuck, here he just wants some space so they go out for dinner. First they go to a clothing store though, Junta’s uniform got dirty so he’s in his gym clothes rn, some restaurants might not allow him inside. We also find out that Wataru is loaded \(★ω★)/ but apparently his parents are lowkey shitty and neglectful who only care about his results and nothing else ;v; Junta feels bad that Wataru is a loner in even his own home, and guesses that he might identify with the orphans because of that (Wataru even says that providing happiness to the orphanage kids by making them toys is the only worthwhile thing in his life).

Anyway it seems like the rumor hasn’t spread yet by the time they got back, please do some damage control Wataru;; They parted in a pretty friendly manner, saying goodnight and Wataru going “I enjoyed our time tonight “. Junta is also pretty chill and not blaming Wataru over being a stalker anymore. He thinks that “he was originally a pretty gentle guy, it’s me who has convinced him that we had mutual love so most of this is my fault”.

Junta also tries to brainstorm if he ever met Wataru during their childhood because 1) Wataru mentioned “did you finally remember me?” 3 times early game 2) knew that Junta liked trains as a kid 3) called Junta his “first love” during the science room confrontation and 4) while complaining about his own parents, talked about how Junta’s parents were nice.

That night, Junta had a nightmare where all his classmates are cheering “HENTAI JUNTA 🎵 ” It’s traumatic for him but made me lol.

The happenings of the next day is kinda similar. Anri is acting nice again because Wataru explained everything to him, but we’re actually shown the whole convo they had. Even before Wataru’s visit Anri was feeling lowkey guilty and was planning to not spread a rumor, but I’m still pissed. Apparently he was convinced that Junta was willingly fucking Wataru staying true to his past playboy ways. Also he had noticed Wataru’s feelings of Junta since a long time ago so he found it extra unforgivable. Plus Junta’s homophobic comments from when he came to ask for help pissed him off (he told Wataru that he had experienced a similar love, so gayness confirmed). All of these together still doesn’t excuse his actions, but just letting y’all know.

I feel like he’s one of those religious ppl who are too hung up about their beliefs. He is a die-hard supporter of “true love  ” so he keeps excusing all of Wataru’s problematic shit and expects the worst of Junta because of his playboy past.

Anyway, Anri admits that he went too far and apologizes, and Junta forgives Anri and is like ‘nah it’s my own fault’. Anri asks him to face Wataru’s feelings seriously, even if he ends up rejecting him in the end. (It’s not like Junta hasn’t tried, Anri, Wataru is just too blind. Though rn Wataru’s guilt is making him more clear-headed so now is a good chance). I appreciate that Junta takes Anri’s advice seriously and tries to sort out his feelings, and mentions that he doesn’t want to hurt Wataru. He stared at Wataru during PE class and failed to get dokis, but his dick started getting hard lol. My friend labeled this conditioned response as pavlov’s dick (I have the best friends ).

Junta: “My lower half was honest to the point of disgusting myself” 😂

Again things similar to the bad end happened but in lesser intensity. When they are the last ones in the locker room, Junta’s newfound resolve for a healthy friendly relationship breaks as he gets a hard on again and Wataru is like “we can’t do it here, I promised myself that I won’t put Junta-kun in danger again by having sex in a public place, we can do it in my room or yours “. Junta is like “fuck that, I can’t wait that long”, and when Wataru tries to explain more logically blows up on him and pretty much orders him to fuck. Like the bad end, Wataru gets offended and says that it sounded like Junta only thought of him as a tool to satisfy his sexual urges, and Junta is like “Isn’t that enough? If you love me, aren’t you happy as long as I feel good?” and Wataru is like “not anymore >.>” I’M SO PROUD OF MA BOI WATARU

Meanwhile, Wataru is pissed when he tries to explain that he wanted to make Junta feel good, but he also wanted to be loved back, and Junta is just “yeah yeah love ya now do it already”. Look at his angry face

He actually gets so mad that he makes Junta give him a bj like “according to your logic you should do this if you like me” 😂 I’m laughing but he’s pretty sad. He says that he finally “woke up from the dream that we were in love” and “it was all my misunderstanding”

Interestingly enough he remembers all the verbal abuse Junta threw at him even though back then he shook them all off like “you’re shy uwu”, and says that he doesn’t get how he managed to convince himself that. His dark side comes out a lot in this scene but I think this makes him human. Everything he’s complaining about is legit, and he sounds less yan and more like a normal jilted lover. He even promised that this would be the last time. It hurts me how they both look so pained T_T


“I didn’t want to realize this late…that you thought nothing of me…”

I’m laughing rn because Wataru is acting like a normal angry person and mockingly asking Junta how it feels to happily suck the dick of a guy he called disgusting earlier,
that’s a hot expression 😍

After Wataru gives Junta a facial and leaves, Junta calms down and feels a little guilty despite his childish demands of sex from earlier. He convinces himself that everything turned out for the best. now he can distance himself of his recently developed weird sexual urges and return to ‘normal’. Wataru also would also be better off without someone who cannot love him back. He still can’t forget Wataru’s sad eyes tho ;v;

They don’t talk for the next few days. One day Anri is still trying and failing to capture Subra-kyun, who is supposedly marketed as ‘common sense doesn’t apply to him”, and Junta ended up unintentionally giving him a hint. Junta asked him if he has tried the picking the choices corresponding to the other character’s routes, and Anri explained that in most mobage you usually are stuck in the route of the character you picked and the choices of the other dudes would normally take you to a bad end. Junta pointed out that maybe such “common sense” doesn’t apply to this character and Anri was super elated to find the trick behind this route. (I wonder if this also has something to do with Wataru, will we have to do something weird to get him lol.) While wondering about how he had been prejudiced by ‘common sense’ before, Junta realized that his homophobic comments were what made Anri angry earlier and decided to mend his ways. Character development 👌


Fuck Anri stop being cute and singing when playing otome games (you can hear him singing here)

Back in his room, Junta is missing Wataru and is thinking like “It’d be nice if we could be good friends…who occasionally have sex…wait, I’m thinking with my dick again orz” and admits that it’s only natural for Wataru to not want to be treated as a sex object like Junta keeps doing to him. Right after that, Junta runs into Wataru in the dorm and invites himself to Wataru’s room to have a chat (it’s surprising how Wataru is talking to him normally, their last interaction was a dub-conny bj). He wanted to find out where exactly Wataru met him before (he had already investigated by checking previous school yearbooks and asking past classmates, but nobody had any idea about Wataru).
Wataru explains that he was a transfer student in their elementary school and also transferred away again in 6 months for his father’s job, so it’s not surprising that nobody including Junta remembers him.

Wataru’s head is too big lmao. Seems like Wataru was right when he gave Junta a toy train early game, bb Junta was so passionate about trains XD. Apparently Wataru’s love was born from the fact that Junta was willing to be friends with him even though he was super introverted even back then. A simple reason, but back then he was just too lonely because of his family situation so I guess he imprinted onto Junta HARD. I gotta say though- Wataru is tough. I’d get disillusioned from spending months seeing Junta talk shit about his playboy ways while I nurse a one-sided childhood crush.

After the flashback Wataru analyzed his own behavior until now and explained how his heart had chosen denial as a coping method to recover from the shock of being rejected by his idol™ Junta after gathering up the courage to confess. He told Junta that he wanted Junta’s love, so now that he knows he can’t get it he has promised himself that he won’t ever touch Junta again, and suggests Junta find a partner among the many ppl willing to go out with him if he’s horny. Junta actually starts getting horny despite having made up his mind to get over this, and Wataru asks if he really wants sex again. 2 choices, Wataru doesn’t fuck Junta either way but I picked the first where Junta admits his thirst because it has more dialogue, and Wataru calls Junta out for lying in the second case.

He throws out Junta when Junta gets too thirsty lmao “I didn’t fall in love with such a Junta-kun!” (I’m betting that Junta will take this line badly.) It was lowkey tragic when Junta was like “I can’t help but think of you all day dammit” and Wataru sadly replied that he wanted to be liked for his whole being, not just his body 😭 Junta also argues back that Wataru also only saw a idolized version of him, so I guess they are both terrible to each other.

That night Junta is missing out sleep again because he’s up jerking to Wataru 😂 Afterwards he was a little down and thought back on his past relationships and how many girls who were so in love with him that they agreed to a physcial relationship, but in the end dumped him because he never grew to like them. He realized that he hadn’t actually been in love, it was always just physical attraction, and felt that he was more ‘abnormal’ and alone than Wataru, at least Wataru is capable of love like normal people. He gets lowkey jelly over this.

The next day Junta is super sleep-deprived and he collapsed in gym class (that’s why you don’t stay up all night wanking, folks) and Wataru took him to the infirmary. There he had a dream with 2 halves: the first half was Wataru assaulting him in the infirmary and talking about how he wasn’t the Junta-kun he fell in love with and a slutty imposter who can only be an onahole. The second half was them dating openly in school, pink background and all. But his dream boyfriend wataru was super abusive and controlling in a “don’t talk to others without my permission, give me passwords to all your social media, eat only what I allow you to” etc way. This seemed like a representation of Junta’s fear towards the idea of being with Wataru. I cracked up when he actually told Wataru about the dream after he woke up (apparently he was twisting around a lot from the nightmares). Wataru asks him which dream he liked better, and I’m like “where is the NEITHER option dammit”

~~~BAD END 5 (MERRY BAD END)~~~

I picked the “kawaii abusive couple” dream as the better one to get the “merry bad end”. Junta expected Wataru to be pleased but he seems to have seen through the lie (Junta obviously prefers being dicked down) and is being grumpy. Junta is also grumpy that Wataru isn’t giving him the dicc.
This end disturbed me more than I expected it to, the first time I skipped through everything because of secondhand embarrassment. So what happened is that Junta started dressing up as a girl and talking in a falsetto because he thought it would be easier to love Wataru that way?  Basically Junta is so caught up with gender roles that he can’t handle loving Wataru as a man, so he brainwashes himself to become more like “Junko” (remember his avatar in the otoge?), who is capable of “pure love”. His fake high pitched voice bothers me so much argh ლಠ益ಠ)ლ. I cringed so hard when mid sex he was like “I’m gonna get pregnant ”

Junta actually looks cute in the CG and I’d be cool if it were some regular roleplay or something, but the context ruins it. Thankfully he isn’t crossdressing in his everyday life so nobody else knows about this, but it’s still problematic that he feels the need to throw away his identity. He acts as always at school and around friends, but whenever he’s alone with Wataru he drops into that fake falsetto, crossdresses and acts like shoujo manga heroine, and his ways of expressing love is also pretty forced and feminine™

Wataru is disturbed by this, but accepts it because “I’ll love Junta-kun in any form”. He does have sad monologues like “he doesn’t realize that he doesn’t need to do this, he’s like how I was back then, not listening to his words, I can finally understand his pain”. He’s hopeful though, they plan to live together after graduating and Wataru described it as “Junta-kun will be free to dress up as a woman as much as he wants….until he wakes up from the fantasy. Like I did”. I’m hoping that it will be a result of character development and not because they break up or something.

~~~BAD END 5 (MERRY BAD END) FIN~~~

By finishing all the other ends, I managed to unlock a bad end that’s 3P with Anri :/ It disappointed me because I’m not here for that shit, also it started out in a way that made me think everything is going to turn out better than before. Even though this unlocked after the happy end, I will review this first so we don’t have to finish the post with a bad taste in our mouths.

~~~BAD END 4~~~

We get this bad end if Junta is SUPER RUDE to Wataru when rejecting him during his confession early game. Wataru backs off, but later starts getting jealous seeing Junta hugging Anri playfully and comes up to Anri and Junta asking if Junta turned him down because he was already dating Anri.

They have a long discussion in Anri’s room which was pretty smooth at the start (Anri actually succeeds to remove all of Wataru’s leftover delusions), but then Junta starts repeating his reasons for rejecting Wataru which included “two guys doing together is just gross” and just like the usual common route, Anri gets pissed and throws him out.

With Junta gone, they have a heart to heart and we learn that Anri is gay like we suspected and actually had a similar experience to Wataru’s (confessed to a friend and got rejected and received homophobic slurs). Wataru also talks about his and Junta’s meeting during childhood, and Anri gets even madder when he realizes the extent of Wataru’s love.

He decides to “punish” Junta, and even though Wataru the gud boi had already decided to give up, Anri spurs him on to try to win Junta’s heart :/ During the next couple of days Anri and Wataru spend all their time hanging out together, and Junta finds himself being left out often because his other “friends” aren’t that close to him and often run off to dates with their girlfriends.

Anri and Wataru’s plan was to make Junta lonely and jealous, but it backfired when Junta got TOO jealous and blew up on them. Junta was also under the misconception that Anri and Wataru were dating, and mocked them about having sex and whatnot, and also said they should be grateful to him for rejecting Wataru and giving them the chance to get together.

Anri tells Wataru that this Junta is a different person from the boy he fell in love with, and this outburst is the proof of his shitty personality. Junta tries to defend himself by saying that he was harsh to Wataru because it’s better to reject decisively instead of giving false hopes, and while Anri is disgusted, Wataru seems to buy that logic.

Wataru probably short circuits from all the craziness and goes “no matter what you say, I’ll love Junta-kun my whole life”, and Anri starts shittalking and insulting Junta for his fuckboi habits (the other day they saw Junta trying to pick up girls and failing, making Wataru go ‘you should’ve asked me uwu”). Anri somehow convinces Wataru that Junta actually wants his dicc, and we all know how Wataru likes to avert his eyes from reality as a coping mechanism, he immediately starts feeling up Junta while Anri restricts Junta’s hands and keeps talking shit.

As if it wasn’t creepy enough that Anri is there when Wataru starts fucking Junta, after a while Anri is like “hey u don’t mind sharing him a little right uwu” and shoves his dick in Junta’s mouth. This is where the logic of the narrative went to hell, Anri has been claiming that he wants help Wataru with his love, how can he not see that facefucking the object of his affections would fuck that up? Wataru was not bothered by Anri’s presence until now but he probably didn’t expect Anri to actually go for a bj, so he gets jealous but still he feels indebted to Anri so he doesn’t stop anything.

In the end, Junta supposedly accepts Wataru’s feelings but he becomes slutty, kinda like a less extreme version of Junta from the orgies end. Now he can’t be satisfied if he doesn’t get fucked by both Anri and Wataru at the same time.


Wataru says that he’s happy with what he has, but his monologue shows that he thinks “someone like me isn’t worthy, Junta-kun is too amazing to be satisfied with just me” “I’ll love him always even if he only considers me a tool to satisfy his sex drive”. This made me so mad, ma boi wataru doesn’t deserve this NTR 

~~~BAD END 4 FIN~~~

Let’s forget this bs and go to the happy end. ONAHOLE ROUTE WILL SET U FREE.

~~~HAPPY END~~~

If we’ve been picking all the nice options so far and Junta says that he liked the dream where Wataru fucks him hard and calls him an onahole, Wataru appreciates that Junta honestly admitted he’s thirsty and didn’t lie at least. They both return to the dorm but Wataru leaves for a stroll outside to clear his head. Once inside Anri accompanies Junta to the dining room and gets food for him (remember that he fainted in gym class, also Anri is nicer in this route because Junta isn’t problematic enough lol).

Junta does a notable amount of self-reflection and thinks how Wataru is originally a nice guy who became twisted because of Junta’s meddling. We can see that this is different from the merry bad end because Junta isn’t 24/7 horny and instead of saying “it’d be better if I was a girl”, he says “It’d be good if I could fall in love with him”. I’m so glad that he’s finally throwing away his prejudice 🎉 He wonders how people fall in love, and confesses to Anri that he has never actually been in love and feels like he’s abnormal. Anri for once says some nice LGBT motivational stuff that I’m gonna translate:

The way someone falls in love differs from person to person. The force of their love also varies. Some people are completely devoted to one person for life and can’t consider anyone else. Some people might currently be in casual relationships but fall hard for someone the next time. There are also people who will always prefer casual relationships. People who never come to love anyone also exist, as do people who fall in love with multiple people at once. While there are people who can only love the same gender, there are people who don’t care about gender at all. Humans come in all types. ‘Normal’ doesn’t mean anything.

I feel like the people who wrote this game are above the usual homophobic bs present in BL, it’s great 😀 Also the otome game lesson is finally becoming relevant – Anri told Junta that just like in the game, Junta shouldn’t let himself be trapped by what’s “normal” when it comes to matters of the heart, and Junta realizes that he had let his desire to be ‘normal’, his obsession over school hierarchy, and his pride to cloud his eyes, and decides to stop giving a fuck.

He goes out to find Wataru who still hadn’t returned, and finds him in the park where the confession scene early game had occurred. Meanwhile we also see some flashbacks from Wataru’s POV that makes it clear that he’s totally clear headed rn, and feels super bad about putting Junta through all that mess and making him obsessed with sex. While he knows that he can “atone” by becoming a human dildo for Junta, it’d be too painful for his heart.

Now that Junta has thrown away his prejudices, Wataru suddenly appears to be very ikemen in his eyes and he starts getting dokis  . Junta is like “what is this feeling uwu” and also realizes that unlike the last couple of days, he’s not feeling horny without any reason. His nervous tone (because of dokis) is misinterpreted by Wataru as him being thirsty again, but Junta tells him that he simply was worried that Wataru wasn’t coming back, that’s all.

Wataru is happy, but he still brings up some bad news- he wants to leave the school in order to take responsibility for his past actions. (I liked how Wataru was like “I decide my own life ヾ(`ヘ´)ノ゙ ” when Junta asked if his shitty parents would oppose his decision) He says that his presence would bother Junta and get in the way of getting a gf. Junta calls him out on his bullshit and points out that he’s just running away because of Junta’s unreasonable demands of sex despite not loving Wataru, and Wataru admits that it’s too hard for him to live with the guilt. He’s ashamed of how he not only became crazed himself, but also messed up Junta’s head.

Junta: “I wanted to love him. But I don’t know how.” Oh u potato, that line means you’re already in love (~ ̄³ ̄)~

Junta accuses Wataru that he actually only loves Junta’s young self and not his current asshole version, and he wants to leave in order to not further pollute that ideal image with current Junta’s flaws. They’re both surprised at how Junta is upset enough at the idea to cry, and Wataru hugs him ♡ There really should’ve been a CG here, dammit >.<

Junta feels very comforted by the hug, and Wataru soothes him saying that he’ll like the current Junta no matter how he was a past fuccboi with a inflated ego who used to make stupid bragging posts about getting girls and get roasted by angry women on social media 😂 Junta is like “wait 🤔 did you stalk me online before we met?” and Wataru is like OH CRAP lolol. To be fair, he didn’t do anything extreme, just looked him up on the Japan version of facebook. Wataru is super flustered like “I wanted to take this secret to my grave 😭 ” making Junta go rofl. My friend gave the perfect description of Wataru, a “sweet little sinnabun of self-made sex toys”

Junta’s like “if you didn’t get disillusioned by my cringey posts, your love is real” and even though he said it as a joke, Wataru looks at him hopefully and Junta finally believes that Wataru loves his current self. They are still cuddling in the middle of the park, and Junta is like “I want to be like this forever  I’ve never felt this way towards anyone”.

He even asks Wataru “what does it mean to have dokis while looking at you and to feel like hugging you forever” Wataru is like PLEASE DON’T MAKE ME SAY THAT >//////////< Look at these awkward bbs

And finally, everything is pure and good

Junta: “Ah, I finally understand. I really have fallen in love with you”
Wataru: “Junta-kun! ^/////^ ”

Anri cockblocks them right when they are about to kiss, he had come to fetch them because they are past their dorm curfew 😂

Anri teasingly accuses the 2 of them of having a public sex kink 😂 Apparently Wataru promised Anri that he won’t ever do lewd stuff in public spaces after that locker incident (Anri knows that Wataru was the one who tied Junta up) so he gets extra teased lol. Junta also becomes convinced that Wataru does have a public sex kink because

first kiss: in the gym
first bj: in the classroom
first 69: in the shared shower room
first time using toys: classroom again
first time facefucking: gym locker room

So the sumata in Junta’s room is the only exception lol. After this they are back to the dorm dining room where Wataru is eating dinner and Junta is like “can I have some of that cutlet 👀” and we got a classic “an~” moment 😂 What a cute bakappuru  Anri asks Junta what happened in this one hour to change their relationship this much and Junta admits that he confessed to Wataru and goes “AH MECHAKUCHA HAZUKASHIIII >///////<”


Cute 

Wataru seems to be concerned about Junta’s reputation and asks Anri to keep mum about them dating. Junta has developed enough as a character that he doesn’t care about it, but Anri agrees that the other dude who witnessed the locker incident might end up exposing them if their relationship becomes a hot topic in school. I love that the story of this game is so coherent and doesn’t forget about such plot points.

When Junta was entering his room Wataru also whooshed in, giving him a shock and a sense of deja vu from the sumata incident. Junta decided to tease Wataru like “this reminds me of that time this guy trespassed into my room”, but stupid Wataru didn’t realize that he was the culprit in question. He was like “which bastard dares try to harm my precious Junta-kun” in a super low, threatening (and kinda sexy) voice, but then Junta’s like “YOU” and he goes “Eh?” in a stupid dumbfounded tone lmfao

Junta is a little nervous to make a move on Wataru because of his past rejection and promise to not touch Junta, and Wataru is like “my promises aren’t worth shit, except this one” then he swears to love Junta his whole life and dedicate his everything to make him happy  They finally kiss, so much pink

Loveydovey boys 


Tongue ٩(♡ε♡)۶

Junta wants to bang but Wataru wants to do things in proper order this time (also Junta did faint during gym class the same day, sex isn’t advisable rn). Junta agrees, though he’s a little frustrated and horny (but in a normal teenage boy in love way, not crazed sex maniac way), he tried to go to sleep without wanking but ended up doing it in the end 😂 It’s funny how he did the same thing before and the situation seemed so bleak, but now it’s cute and comical. Junta also notes that he’s horny but not desperate like before, and believes that it’s because his heart is now satisfied 

The next day Junta is in a super good mood: “Wow, the world is shining….I’ve been reborn!” Anri is a little surprised that Wataru isn’t together with him but it seems like they are already working hard to keep their relationship secret. Though I don’t understand what the problem is with just being seen together, Junta was already doing that during his otoge experiment days so meh.

There is also a short funny scene where Junta wonders if they ever got seen by others until now and Anri does such a super high pitched “EH?!” that I can’t believe came out of a man’s throat lmao Suspicious (¬_¬ )

At school Junta was muttering to himself, wondering why Wataru is so good at kissing, and a classmate ended up hearing parts of the sentence and got excited that “Junta’s making out with some experienced babe”. Junta was like “hey don’t eavesdrop, I’ve finally found a person I really like  We’re both each other’s first love” Friend was like “I’m happy for you but wow man you changed”😂

During nighttime Junta and Wataru proceeded to the next step of their relationship: frottage  (sadly no cg) Stupid Junta realized the next day that he still hasn’t asked Wataru for his phone number, that should’ve been the very first step in dating lol. Meanwhile, Anri has finally managed to capture Subaru-kyun, that super hard character in the mobage, and he’s so emotional that he’s openly weeping 😂 He’s like ‘it was worth spending XX0000 yen T^T” and I’m like holy shit someone save this boy from ‘free’ mobage trap lmao.

Anri’s like “love is so amazing, I want to be in love again uwu” and talks about how Junta has become much more respectable compared to the past when he was a three-timing playa lol. Wataru enters the classroom at just the perfect timing to hear this convo and is like ( ͡☉ ͜ʖ ͡☉). He stares at Anri and Junta chatting (which mostly consists of whispering “ffffs”) for a few minutes, then Anri greets Wataru and surprises him enough to make him drop his phone. Junta returns Wataru’s phone, and Wataru takes the opportunity to naughtily caress the back of Junta’s hand  Junta’s like “omg dark Katsuragi is back” lmfao. He thinks about how Wataru has many faces, and is excited to see them all even if some of them are yan yan XD

Later Junta almost got an erection when thinking about Wataru in the bath, and was like “partner, please calm down, there are ppl around”. Calling his dicc partner 😂 He starts planning his schedule in order to have enough sleep and get his homework done, while also leaving enough time at night for ichaicha with Wataru (*≧ω≦*)  That night he wakes up from his nap with a hard on and goes to Wataru’s room with a bag in front of his crotch lmao („ಡωಡ„) This part of the route is so hilarious.

Junta cutely blames Wataru for firing him up with the hand touch earlier, and Wataru admits that he wanted to tease Junta a little because he was a little jealous…of not his ex girlfriends, but Anri. He knew about Junta’s past playboy acts so it’s not news to him, but he feels jelly that Anri got to hear everything from Junta’s own month while he lived the lonely life of an online stalker ( ̄▽ ̄). Junta is nervous of Wataru learning too much about him and becoming disillusioned, but Wataru promises not to be and keeps teasing Junta without stripping him. He says “not yet~” at Junta’s requests to touch him directly, and when Junta’s like “stop I’m going to ruin my pants” he’s like “okay then I’m stopping uwu”. Ngl I’m so weak for characters who have a soft and gentle voice and don’t use any force but still manage to be an S

Though they don’t look like regular high schoolers, I like how both male characters are similarly built and the uke isn’t practically a female with a dick. I do find it funny that Wataru is supposed to be very “unathletic”, but look at his sprite…

What follows is some drawn out foreplay and finally a normal consensual and unproblematic hscene!!  🎉 🎉 🎉

After one round, Wataru was finding everything too good to be true and was like “this isn’t a dream, right?” Junta wants to reassure him and tells him that this isn’t a dream and he is here. He also asks him if he can call Wataru by his first name (until now he has just called him “Katsuragi”), which made Wataru’s doubts do away completely ^.^

Wataru: I’m happy, Junta-kun…

Junta: I’ll make you even happier.

Aaaah, have all my uwus 😭 While they are still enjoying the afterglow Wataru accidentally lets it slip that he had imagined doing this for years while looking at Junta’s pictures on social media. Junta’s like “wut” and Wataru is dying all over again, esecpially after Junta teases him saying “Sheesh, you really are deep down a pervert”. He starts talking again about how he planned to take this to the grave, I don’t think your grave is big enough for all your secrets Wataru 😂

The next day they skipped class because they stayed up all night huehue. Wataru actually got up in time but Junta was sleeping too peacefully and he couldn’t bear to forcefully awake him. I lol’ed when he started planning on how to lie to the school.

Junta’s sleeptalking makes it obvious that he’s still dreaming of happily dicking around with Wataru, and Wataru is honestly glad that Junta’s dreams that feature him aren’t nightmares. He is sure that he made Junta see many nightmares back when he was still deluded, and promises to never make Junta go through such nightmares again. The last line of the game is him softly saying “I love you, my Junta-kun” 😭 ♥

~~~HAPPY END FIN~~~

Because I had already finished everything else, I got an extra scene – apparently Anri and a mob character peeped on their first classroom bj 😂 The desk Junta was sitting on was that mob character’s, rip mob boi.

~~~Final Impressions~~~

This game really surprised me because I totally wasn’t expecting it to be as cute as it turned out to be. And it’s not like the dark parts were lacking- they did a great job portraying the eeriness of Wataru’s deluded pursuing, but at the end of the day his redemption was also believable and Junta falling in love with him in the end didn’t make me feel like I was watching a case of stockholme syndrome. The overall narration also lacked any shitty BL tropes which was honestly a blessing. The happy end was really great, a never ending stream of uwus (๑♡⌓♡๑) though I wish they did things other than ichaicha-ing post confession. Can’t you guys like, play games together or watch tv or something? Also they still haven’t exchanged numbers  .

This is the developer JINCLIP’s first game, but the production quality is great and the writing style and graphic effects here reminds me of Parade’s games, especially No thank you!!! and Room no. 9. The comical dialogue even in the middle of dark/twisted events, as well as the moaning in the background and visible breathes during hscenes really make me think that JINCLIP might be a branch of theirs (or at least share some staff), I need to check them out.

While I have some suggestions (more CGs at specific points, not making the 3P end locked because happy end is the perfect finish to the game, giving eyes to the classmate sprites), I don’t have any complaints at all about this game. Though people who came for yandere Wataru might be disappointed XD He’s such a softie~ His VA voiced Haru from No Thank you!!!, but I couldn’t tell at all, he sounds so gentle here whereas Haru is….a piece of work lmao.

So yeah, my final verdict is that this is an entertaining, mid-length game with good music, nice art and a perfect mix of mindfucc and fluff. I loved it, and if you usually share my interests I totally suggest you play this game  ღゝ◡╹)ノ♡

2 thoughts on “BL game Review/Summary: Ego to Koukai no Dilemma

  1. Thanks for such a detailed review! I know writing these isn’t easy at all but I’m glad there are still some of us out there doing it lol. The game sounds like it has some really good points such as the LGBTQIA+ commentary and the critiques of common prejudices. The writers seem to be self-aware which is something I wish happened in more games.

    I’m probably not picking up the game since the price + shipping is really expensive in comparison to the length but your review was really thorough and enjoyable so it felt like I could play it through you x)

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